Began to like them only this year, not because of fame, not because of money.
But because of who they actually are, individually and how they inspire me in their own ways.
So much news and stories about how selfish and wrecked their lives are as celebrities, but face it, we are all humans anyway. And human makes mistakes. You can't have them every minute taking a picture with you, you can't make them 'be' with you because they are celebrities, but at the same time, they are just the same, like any other one of us.
Whatever happens, who the hell cares? Nobody cares or gives a two worth cents about what they did. Maybe some thoughts about them, but at the end of the day, it comes to a point that you just gotta do what you love, do what you fucking want, continue the journey, fight the war, because it is your life, be the best that you can ever be, because haters will hate and haters are always gonna hate.
Much respect to these two.
xxx
5 years ago, i thought i've found the perfect guy. The one who attracts me, able to make me laugh, cry, talk, anything all together without any doubts and worries. Gave him my best, showered him with whatever i could, tease him, love him. I thought he was the one.
Unfortunately, he wasn't. Not close. He wasn't the same guy when we separate ways to go to different schools in ite. He wasn't who he was. Doesn't mean problems keep coming we can't solve. He just dissapeared into thin air and vanish, leaving me into pieces. I was shattered, devastated, unreliable because i thought the one whom i love left me. He did, literally. And i was hanging left for about a month. I tried so many ways to get though him. Call, meet, texts.. nothing was useful. Nothing. Not forgetting calling him at home and telling his sister about it. He doesn't even want to meet me. I was so desperate that i went to top up for him just to hear a reply from him. That was so wrong and foolish of me.
He only came back for a day or two saying thank you, and thats it. I thought he needed some time away so i tried keeping myself together and look at the brighter side. But my cousin was in the same school with him and she told me all the things he did behind my back. Making friends with girls and having so much fun. When she tried asking him about me, he tried to change topic.
Then i realised he only came back when one, he needed help or two, just to ask a few questions. I felt he was my life. My world revolved around him. During work i called him, feeling nervous all at the same time but he was there, talking to girls and just fooling around. I tried so haaaaaard to win him but i just couldn't. The last thing that made me burst was when i caught him on the phone with a girl, with the help of my friend and that girl claimed that she was his girlfriend. Whatever it was or whatever he tried to tell me, i just couldn't accept it at all. I tried for months to talk to him and it just takes a few calls to be called his 'girlfriend'?
I cried and cried so hard. Harder when i told him off about the girl, and he, told me off and defended that girl. I then realised i was being a crazy bitch. What am i doing? My days started in ITE in Bishan and it didn't even started well all because of him. I was.. not right. I should not be killing myself just because of him.
I died, every single day thinking how cheerful and happy everything was at the start and how rough and deep we've fallen at the end. We tried to mend things but all of my friends dissaproved, i tried because ' i still wanted it to work out' But again, i was just being stupid. I caught him again contacting other girls. My friends bumped into him with girls and he told them not to tell me. In the first place why the hell was he so scared if he wasn't making any mistakes.
WHY. WHY. WHY.
In the end, on 2011 it just hit me on my face that all of these are wrong. I am with the wrong person. Love is such a beautiful thing. I couldn't be this. I still can mend my ways and make new friends. My future is still out there. There is no such thing as love if that person is just using you. No men would use his girlfriend's money continuously and giving her broken promises. No men would talk to other girls late at night (besides best friends etc) No men would leave his girlfriend for months and come back without saying anything.
I realised in the end, it was just one sided, he was just using me. All my efforts went down the drain anyway. My hopes, promises, they crashed. It was horrible leaving someone whom you cared for so much and in return, this was what we get. I left. I left for good and didn't talked to him ever again. All the money that he took wasn't returnable. I cared because it was my hard earned money, savings, pocket money from my parents. But my friend told me that money can be earned, but people like him should be just forgotten.
It is true, indeed true and i am so happy with my decision that i made two years ago. I was scared, leaving him and being alone, back to square one all over again but i know better things are up ahead.
Never really forget what really matters. I won't forget this. It mattered because without that decision, i wouldn't be where i am now. For all, i thank Allah. Alhamdulillah.
I love how bonded my class is right now. We are just.. crazy. Met the bunch on Wednesday and i got Ms Fara to teach me a little bit of maths. Thank god for her. The rest did their own stuffs and then we played Fun Run! Siaoweeeeeey.
Labels: Library, RP, school, TeamRP
JBS with the family. This was the first time since 2 years. Lovely sunset.
Labels: Family, Jalan Besar Stadium, Love, Soccer
By far the happiest thing that happened to me today, yipeee!
ALHAMDULILLAH. THANK YOU ALLAH. :)
Nobody, will ever felt what i felt at 1pm earlier and the days earlier, and the years earlier. I was so disappointed in myself. I could not get into a poly like a normal O level student did. I hated myself. Disgusted. Irritated. Down. The oh-so-whatever-feeling that i had in myself.
I tried retaking my Maths twice and failed thrice. Three times and i still failed. Did Administration at ITE Bishan and graduated with a 2.0. Could not secure myself in a polytechnic. What was i doing the whole 2 years.. I was selfish. Did not planned anything after that but got things sorted out. Could not believe myself and retook Events Management. I have no idea. I just did. My friends went to poly, NS, started work, private, i still did not want to accept defeat.
Another 2 years was a HUGE adventure. I made friends, fell in love, i went into Cooking and Culinary and went to so many interesting and big events by school. I told myself, "just one last time". Tried so hard. Did not really want to get connected with the class bcoz i did not want to get too attached to them. I did anyway. Haha it was hard not to. Planning events, executing them, falling in love with my own classmate, loved how cheerful, irritating, noisy but lovable classmates all at the same time, how could i not?
I did it, i finally did. Things happened quite alot in the class. Made teachers laugh, cry and whatever you could imagine. Hahahah still recalling how me and my friends love to sit by the railings and make fun of people.. eye candying.. and at the same time getting scolded for sitting there. Lol. Too many memories made. And then it continued to the big new school at ITE Central. Love the school and made so many new friends. How could it possible. Just one decision could led to another huge impact of my life.
Could not have done better without my family, my mum dad Ain Khidir. My grandmas and my aunties. My cousins. My babigalz, my girls, my madrasah mates and my primary school buddies. All of them. Each and every one of them. This is for all of you. And to me. *Pats on the back*
Could never thank Him more than enough.
:')
Syukur.
#TeamRp, here we go.
xx
Labels: Love, Polytechnic, Results, RP, TeamRP
"Don’t get attached to moments. Good or bad, they all pass."
- Yasmin Mogahed
I felt soooooo happy awhile ago at work, and i'm still am. :) Every time without fail i will always bring this happy vibe home after work. Any time of the day, and i`m still am. I don`t know why, maybe it`s the first time i`m working or i just love being everyone`s company at work. I admit, work is never easy dealing with different kinds of people each time i work. They can make the most easiest things become the most complicated ones. Do not mention about misunderstandings. Lol.
I just got home from working at SECRET`s concert earlier. It was a 2 hour show and it was super good! Despite the 800 pax crowd, i enjoyed it even though i was working for that event. Hahaha. Partnered with Esther and everything went smoothly.
These days after work, Nadeem, as always will give us Sands IQ. I really really hateeeeeeeeee it bcoz i get so nervous for no apparent reason. I tremble like hell everytime i had to stand infront of everyone and answer a question. I hate it more when i could not answer the question correctly. :( Nadeem always gives me the simplest question that i could never have thought of and yet i could not answer. HAHAHAHHA BLOODY HELL. Really need to read up!
Anddddddd yes, to the MBSKIDS, i just want to say i really really just love working with all of you. I think it`s the people and the atmosphere that really keeps me going everytime. There would not be any other place that has so many people like you people. I`m always weak at holding my emotions when i really treasure the people i love. Like another family of mine besides my babigalz and my primary buddies. Work will always be fun with you around. Just now Ashik, Iskandar and Aziz came to visit and there they are.. bringing so much more memories during my first day at work. Haha miss seeing them being the coordinators.
Work will always be fun with you guys around.
This is for all of you. xoxo
Labels: MBSKids
Hellu. Yesterday, i went to have a small date with this lady. I accompanied her for some shopping since.. ehem2 salary ehem2. Hahahaha. Went to Bugis Plus and went into the nicest shop of all! I`ve forgotten the name of the shop but let me tell you, all the items are really really cheap. And very affordable. Definitely going there again! If you love pink, that`s the place.
After that we had dinner @ Bushra Cafe. The food was delicious. I love it. :) Even though i had little pancakes which mum made at home earlier on..... hehehe.
Wanted to get ice cream or cakes for dessert but could not find one. I think we lost our sense of direction bcoz we were tired by then walking around Arab St. Lol. So we had ice cream at Somersettttttttt!
HAHAHAHA COULD U BELIEVE IT?
Me either. Yesssssssss it looks yucky at first sight too.............. i felt the same. :( But but it was REALLYYYYYYY DELICIOUS. U people got to try it. Reaaaaaaaalllyyyy. Actually me and Farihah could not decide on a flavour and even the size. This was an on the spot decision. Hahahahaha fcking funny i tell u. I was laughing when i told the person "Errrrrr Red velvet and......hahahahahhaa cotton candy." I was like (??????!!!!!)
But it turned out really good. The Red Velvet is really nice and we added cookie dough + brownies. Heaven.
So, to those who wants to feel how this^ taste like. Go and get your fix now! :D
HEKHEK.
Labels: Bushra Cafe, Ice Cream, Pancakes, Red Velvet
Began to like them only this year, not because of fame, not because of money.
But because of who they actually are, individually and how they inspire me in their own ways.
So much news and stories about how selfish and wrecked their lives are as celebrities, but face it, we are all humans anyway. And human makes mistakes. You can't have them every minute taking a picture with you, you can't make them 'be' with you because they are celebrities, but at the same time, they are just the same, like any other one of us.
Whatever happens, who the hell cares? Nobody cares or gives a two worth cents about what they did. Maybe some thoughts about them, but at the end of the day, it comes to a point that you just gotta do what you love, do what you fucking want, continue the journey, fight the war, because it is your life, be the best that you can ever be, because haters will hate and haters are always gonna hate.
Much respect to these two.
xxx
5 years ago, i thought i've found the perfect guy. The one who attracts me, able to make me laugh, cry, talk, anything all together without any doubts and worries. Gave him my best, showered him with whatever i could, tease him, love him. I thought he was the one.
Unfortunately, he wasn't. Not close. He wasn't the same guy when we separate ways to go to different schools in ite. He wasn't who he was. Doesn't mean problems keep coming we can't solve. He just dissapeared into thin air and vanish, leaving me into pieces. I was shattered, devastated, unreliable because i thought the one whom i love left me. He did, literally. And i was hanging left for about a month. I tried so many ways to get though him. Call, meet, texts.. nothing was useful. Nothing. Not forgetting calling him at home and telling his sister about it. He doesn't even want to meet me. I was so desperate that i went to top up for him just to hear a reply from him. That was so wrong and foolish of me.
He only came back for a day or two saying thank you, and thats it. I thought he needed some time away so i tried keeping myself together and look at the brighter side. But my cousin was in the same school with him and she told me all the things he did behind my back. Making friends with girls and having so much fun. When she tried asking him about me, he tried to change topic.
Then i realised he only came back when one, he needed help or two, just to ask a few questions. I felt he was my life. My world revolved around him. During work i called him, feeling nervous all at the same time but he was there, talking to girls and just fooling around. I tried so haaaaaard to win him but i just couldn't. The last thing that made me burst was when i caught him on the phone with a girl, with the help of my friend and that girl claimed that she was his girlfriend. Whatever it was or whatever he tried to tell me, i just couldn't accept it at all. I tried for months to talk to him and it just takes a few calls to be called his 'girlfriend'?
I cried and cried so hard. Harder when i told him off about the girl, and he, told me off and defended that girl. I then realised i was being a crazy bitch. What am i doing? My days started in ITE in Bishan and it didn't even started well all because of him. I was.. not right. I should not be killing myself just because of him.
I died, every single day thinking how cheerful and happy everything was at the start and how rough and deep we've fallen at the end. We tried to mend things but all of my friends dissaproved, i tried because ' i still wanted it to work out' But again, i was just being stupid. I caught him again contacting other girls. My friends bumped into him with girls and he told them not to tell me. In the first place why the hell was he so scared if he wasn't making any mistakes.
WHY. WHY. WHY.
In the end, on 2011 it just hit me on my face that all of these are wrong. I am with the wrong person. Love is such a beautiful thing. I couldn't be this. I still can mend my ways and make new friends. My future is still out there. There is no such thing as love if that person is just using you. No men would use his girlfriend's money continuously and giving her broken promises. No men would talk to other girls late at night (besides best friends etc) No men would leave his girlfriend for months and come back without saying anything.
I realised in the end, it was just one sided, he was just using me. All my efforts went down the drain anyway. My hopes, promises, they crashed. It was horrible leaving someone whom you cared for so much and in return, this was what we get. I left. I left for good and didn't talked to him ever again. All the money that he took wasn't returnable. I cared because it was my hard earned money, savings, pocket money from my parents. But my friend told me that money can be earned, but people like him should be just forgotten.
It is true, indeed true and i am so happy with my decision that i made two years ago. I was scared, leaving him and being alone, back to square one all over again but i know better things are up ahead.
Never really forget what really matters. I won't forget this. It mattered because without that decision, i wouldn't be where i am now. For all, i thank Allah. Alhamdulillah.
I love how bonded my class is right now. We are just.. crazy. Met the bunch on Wednesday and i got Ms Fara to teach me a little bit of maths. Thank god for her. The rest did their own stuffs and then we played Fun Run! Siaoweeeeeey.
Labels: Library, RP, school, TeamRP
JBS with the family. This was the first time since 2 years. Lovely sunset.
Labels: Family, Jalan Besar Stadium, Love, Soccer
By far the happiest thing that happened to me today, yipeee!
ALHAMDULILLAH. THANK YOU ALLAH. :)
Nobody, will ever felt what i felt at 1pm earlier and the days earlier, and the years earlier. I was so disappointed in myself. I could not get into a poly like a normal O level student did. I hated myself. Disgusted. Irritated. Down. The oh-so-whatever-feeling that i had in myself.
I tried retaking my Maths twice and failed thrice. Three times and i still failed. Did Administration at ITE Bishan and graduated with a 2.0. Could not secure myself in a polytechnic. What was i doing the whole 2 years.. I was selfish. Did not planned anything after that but got things sorted out. Could not believe myself and retook Events Management. I have no idea. I just did. My friends went to poly, NS, started work, private, i still did not want to accept defeat.
Another 2 years was a HUGE adventure. I made friends, fell in love, i went into Cooking and Culinary and went to so many interesting and big events by school. I told myself, "just one last time". Tried so hard. Did not really want to get connected with the class bcoz i did not want to get too attached to them. I did anyway. Haha it was hard not to. Planning events, executing them, falling in love with my own classmate, loved how cheerful, irritating, noisy but lovable classmates all at the same time, how could i not?
I did it, i finally did. Things happened quite alot in the class. Made teachers laugh, cry and whatever you could imagine. Hahahah still recalling how me and my friends love to sit by the railings and make fun of people.. eye candying.. and at the same time getting scolded for sitting there. Lol. Too many memories made. And then it continued to the big new school at ITE Central. Love the school and made so many new friends. How could it possible. Just one decision could led to another huge impact of my life.
Could not have done better without my family, my mum dad Ain Khidir. My grandmas and my aunties. My cousins. My babigalz, my girls, my madrasah mates and my primary school buddies. All of them. Each and every one of them. This is for all of you. And to me. *Pats on the back*
Could never thank Him more than enough.
:')
Syukur.
#TeamRp, here we go.
xx
Labels: Love, Polytechnic, Results, RP, TeamRP
"Don’t get attached to moments. Good or bad, they all pass."
- Yasmin Mogahed
I felt soooooo happy awhile ago at work, and i'm still am. :) Every time without fail i will always bring this happy vibe home after work. Any time of the day, and i`m still am. I don`t know why, maybe it`s the first time i`m working or i just love being everyone`s company at work. I admit, work is never easy dealing with different kinds of people each time i work. They can make the most easiest things become the most complicated ones. Do not mention about misunderstandings. Lol.
I just got home from working at SECRET`s concert earlier. It was a 2 hour show and it was super good! Despite the 800 pax crowd, i enjoyed it even though i was working for that event. Hahaha. Partnered with Esther and everything went smoothly.
These days after work, Nadeem, as always will give us Sands IQ. I really really hateeeeeeeeee it bcoz i get so nervous for no apparent reason. I tremble like hell everytime i had to stand infront of everyone and answer a question. I hate it more when i could not answer the question correctly. :( Nadeem always gives me the simplest question that i could never have thought of and yet i could not answer. HAHAHAHHA BLOODY HELL. Really need to read up!
Anddddddd yes, to the MBSKIDS, i just want to say i really really just love working with all of you. I think it`s the people and the atmosphere that really keeps me going everytime. There would not be any other place that has so many people like you people. I`m always weak at holding my emotions when i really treasure the people i love. Like another family of mine besides my babigalz and my primary buddies. Work will always be fun with you around. Just now Ashik, Iskandar and Aziz came to visit and there they are.. bringing so much more memories during my first day at work. Haha miss seeing them being the coordinators.
Work will always be fun with you guys around.
This is for all of you. xoxo
Labels: MBSKids
Hellu. Yesterday, i went to have a small date with this lady. I accompanied her for some shopping since.. ehem2 salary ehem2. Hahahaha. Went to Bugis Plus and went into the nicest shop of all! I`ve forgotten the name of the shop but let me tell you, all the items are really really cheap. And very affordable. Definitely going there again! If you love pink, that`s the place.
After that we had dinner @ Bushra Cafe. The food was delicious. I love it. :) Even though i had little pancakes which mum made at home earlier on..... hehehe.
Wanted to get ice cream or cakes for dessert but could not find one. I think we lost our sense of direction bcoz we were tired by then walking around Arab St. Lol. So we had ice cream at Somersettttttttt!
HAHAHAHA COULD U BELIEVE IT?
Me either. Yesssssssss it looks yucky at first sight too.............. i felt the same. :( But but it was REALLYYYYYYY DELICIOUS. U people got to try it. Reaaaaaaaalllyyyy. Actually me and Farihah could not decide on a flavour and even the size. This was an on the spot decision. Hahahahaha fcking funny i tell u. I was laughing when i told the person "Errrrrr Red velvet and......hahahahahhaa cotton candy." I was like (??????!!!!!)
But it turned out really good. The Red Velvet is really nice and we added cookie dough + brownies. Heaven.
So, to those who wants to feel how this^ taste like. Go and get your fix now! :D
HEKHEK.
Labels: Bushra Cafe, Ice Cream, Pancakes, Red Velvet
This is your about me section or watever u wanna put in here. Make it long and beautiful, it'll look like tumblr. kekeke.
You know, I really hate my school. The teacher keep shitting on me. I hate it when they give me homeworks. Especially mathematic.
I hate that subject the most plus, the teacher is so fucking shitty. When my parents take my report card, the teacher keep reporting
shits about me. Can't she just shut the fuck up and get lost from my fucking world ? Because she's making it worst. Not only her, but my
PJ or watever u call it teacher is shitty too. He's worst, he acts like he's the motherfucking rich guy in the school and mr.know-anything.
Fuck him. Today he wants me to run four rounds while I'm having this vagina-ache and kidney-ache thingy. He never understands why the fuck does we hate him.
Almost the whole school hate him y'know ! At the first day he came, he gave some speech. And a guy shout " Just go home, we don't need you here. You sucks ! "
He is sucks. Sucks to the mother fucking core.
Back to the entries ?
